thoughts for baby

It was z hardest day in my life… I did not meet the one like him before. ...,
I woke up early at 7:30 am (despite I was sleept late ...) strange things occurred in this day,
------> in z first … suddenly... I found my brain brings me to z end of life... Yes, I felt at this moment that my life will be expiring, ended , but this end will take my brain with her..., i can't stop thinking cuz if I did so... My brain will take me to z end of life... & I will die... so I was very afraid…ohm… “am so worried ...! “My heart was beating fast. … No....I Lost my sense , I’ve had no chance to get away & I became dead..,,.. !!! Yes ((...NOW ...maybe...come with me & see))...-----------> Although We r in z summer, but am very cold … ohm … my body shivers ,Therefore, I went to z next room and took another cover ,But unfortunately .. am still feeling cold ..Ohm my god I’m dieing ..What happens !!!? I Will go to another world!!!!.
NO ANSWERS
simply...cuz I did not looking for any answers…or cuz my brain gives me questions without any answers …. What about this Shiver …. Really, my body shivers in fear & my foot shivers….What is z reason for this fear? ..... heeey ..heeey ... My brain ..Don’t let me plz … still with me I can't stop thinking ,.. Do not let me... ohm… I cauldn't leave my Bed…. Then .... Without feeling I found myself grabbed z cell phone ( I was put my phone Beside me … to can find it easy )& dialed up my heart or dialed up nearest one to my heart .. I told her I would come back to Cairo on Tuesday …...after what I did... I set at ease , But fear not disappears...... so I let him alone and goes into deep sleep…then I woke up at 12:30pm (all this in z same day) &... I feel as z beginning for a new day, But my heart is still beating fast ………… is there problem ,But… I wonder what will be happening more than that… :::
Loss of youth minds……………………………..
Loss of our recognition ………………………….
Loss of our culture…………………………………….
No, no …hey is this fear because of my dreams ? Dreams ….yap it is my dreams tht i cauldn't achieve it,
or
I am searching for something else

about devil

to know who is good and who is bad from your friends pretend you have a problem and the good friend will be there in no time . hey every one i wanna say that today i got a wisdom so, listen or go to hell ,
today's wisdom:.
1- don't love any one cuz no person in our life deserve this love.on the other word don’t ‘v broken heart.
2- don't be kind and be violent it's more good for you , it's trust me on this.
3- don't believe any tears cuz they are n't true .
4- take your care from all of ur friends they are like foxes who have tow faces and they will make you to lost your tember , heart , life , mind , way , & finally they will change you.
5- don't open your heart to any body cuz this person will let you down and tell your father, mother, neighbourhood, all friends , every one and will make u a story.
6- don't be honest with your self i suggest pretend to believe that u r a very good person .
7- be fox is more good for u to be have a bold face .
8-& also be bold in ur relation with others ppl
9-life goes on as it never ends so forget all bad things in ur life .. try … I think is more butter if u forget urself .
10- try to search for beautiful soul can deal with her or go to hell (NICE FOR U)
11- sry be wise plz .
12- Don’t care what you did or what I said …. Hehehheheheyyyyy
Ohh I’m so sry to say this words … but…..!!!! anyway I’m n’t talking head , I just wanna know if u feel it too … and if u have this wisdom :(
Now I saw who is good in my friends … w mosh ha2olko 3aleeh :P

how humans change

There was a blind gir who hated herself just cuz she was blind . she hated everyone , except her loving boyfriend .he was always there for her. She said tht if she could only c z world , she would marry her boyfriend .
One day , someone donated a pair of eyes to her & then she could c everything .
Including her boyfriend . her boyfriend asked her ,” now tht u can c z world , will u marry me ?” z gir was shocked when she saw tht her boyfriend was blind too , & refused to marry him .
Her boyfriend walked away in tears , & later wrote a letter to her saying .
“ JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES PLZ”

This how humans change when their status changes .
Only few remember wht life was before ,& who has always been there in z most painful situations……………………………………………………….

difficult choice

it's more difficult to choose things in ur life or to accept it . itsn't confusing matter but it's fact .. try to think over about anything occur in your life and u will found more things done without any choices .... uhha .. i know you don't understand me ..so i will give u an example to be able to understand on the other way (da lw betfhamo dema3`e )... so I will talk about my friendz . she has a groom suits her , she accepted him.( despite her loving for another guy) ..--> she asked her self why let him he is convenient , and for my guy ( hakalmo 3ady e7na bardo as7ab :( .... it's common in both .. we couldn't chose anything ....................so we will face many things to get the right path . and for me i can't choose my life ..
1- I can't choose my resolution in wht i need to learn ... i am sure i don't learn anything in my faculty help me to join the function( my faculty not given my any information ) therefor, i must go the academy and take many of courses to be able to join a good work .., but i can't do or choose this cuz my faculty take more time ..... I REALLY GIFT ALL MY TIME TO THIS BAAAAD FACULTY..AAAFFFF..
2- I'm n't able to chose my friendz. i found all my friends in front of my eyes without any choice (hey my friends are good), but i talk about choice. I think we are friendz cuz we are in the same place or at the same age .. no choice... not all of this ,but there are many things.....................
the selection decision is very difficult so we need some rethinking to be able to chose things and we must have some faith in god .. therefor we can choose things without any mistakes ...
3- I can't choose my life or I couldn't choose the country tht I want to live in ( may be I don’t know or im crazy =( ) .. anyway in the end … asked god to bless us .......... heey .. I wanna say good night to all .. bye

LICENSE

now,I had a driver's license , wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Now I can drive MY car without any fear of the police CATCH me.... and also can walk in the street as I wish .....wow .....it was so taxed license =( .. ,But now I am very happy =) , cuz i could SET AT EASE ,I congratulate myself (hehehehehe) ya I congratulate myself , cuz she could got what I want .. and I tell her : Thank you for achieving my dreams woooooooooow =) .. anyway Im very very very happy
muy muy muy contento

loca

we used to sing this song at theatre
"lw 2alak ahy aw3a tsebo ya albe , lw 2alak ahy ..... aw3a tsebo ya albe.."

my self wanna talk

can you give a chance to your self ....... i think you don't understand me so i will talk about my thoughts... i gave a chance to my self & expressed what i feel on paper ..then i read what i wrote after long time so my mood is changed and be anothre person not the one who wrote these thoughts .. thts to know my goals in the future and set them to begin my way to be a good and usefull person.after what i did .i found my self writing some words to express my self

give me a chance to be another person

give me a chance to advice my self

give me a chance to express my feelings

give me a chance to express my self

give me a chance to change my self

give me a chance to make me perfect
give me a chance and let me alone


after what i read ..i said how can i give a chance to my self ? then i walk away ...................................................................